Written on March 25, 2011 at 9:12 PM
just a random update again.
maybe i plan to update every end of the week?lols. see if i'm hardworking enough.
plan to write "essays" about life. lalala~ bt i dont think it'll happen vry often. lols.
so.......here it goes.
while studying sejarah, i sudd thought of
actually the concept of komunis is good.
everything is equal, no class in the society. how i wish life is like that.
God is kind of unfair. D:
some people work their heads off just to earn some money when some other people just sits thr and all the money comes in. it kinda sucks thinking bout it.
some people gets all the smartness and some people study and study to cope.
why can't life be more fair?
i hate my life. people might think it's better than theirs. but i think it's not very much better only. it's just that i choose not to show my depression. but, i'm starting to shut people off.
i can feel myself retreating. i realized i treat some people coldly. i cant help it. :/
one thing i hate about myself is, i kept saying what's good what's bad. but ended up, i actually does it too. i judge people, but at the end of the day, i reflect it to myself and i find myself not too much better than them.
sometimes, i think i'm actually faking my happiness.
people seem to don't notice it. it's because i'm actually happy that time or my acting is that good? i, myself cant differentiate it too. maybe it's those happiness that doesn't last long. i don't know.
i can feel empty-ness in myself though. sometimes i'm smiling but i feel depression inside too.
haizzz.........kla, lazy want write. ==
bye, blogggg. :)
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Written on March 25, 2011 at 9:12 PM
just a random update again.
maybe i plan to update every end of the week?lols. see if i'm hardworking enough.
plan to write "essays" about life. lalala~ bt i dont think it'll happen vry often. lols.
so.......here it goes.
while studying sejarah, i sudd thought of
actually the concept of komunis is good.
everything is equal, no class in the society. how i wish life is like that.
God is kind of unfair. D:
some people work their heads off just to earn some money when some other people just sits thr and all the money comes in. it kinda sucks thinking bout it.
some people gets all the smartness and some people study and study to cope.
why can't life be more fair?
i hate my life. people might think it's better than theirs. but i think it's not very much better only. it's just that i choose not to show my depression. but, i'm starting to shut people off.
i can feel myself retreating. i realized i treat some people coldly. i cant help it. :/
one thing i hate about myself is, i kept saying what's good what's bad. but ended up, i actually does it too. i judge people, but at the end of the day, i reflect it to myself and i find myself not too much better than them.
sometimes, i think i'm actually faking my happiness.
people seem to don't notice it. it's because i'm actually happy that time or my acting is that good? i, myself cant differentiate it too. maybe it's those happiness that doesn't last long. i don't know.
i can feel empty-ness in myself though. sometimes i'm smiling but i feel depression inside too.
haizzz.........kla, lazy want write. ==
bye, blogggg. :)